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I’ve
been seeking to reach a conscious contact with God and the life source that
connects as all for the better part of my life. Searching for my purpose,
knowing all along that the world was far bigger than my humanly 5 senses could
ever understand. Inner peace, harmony with the universe, free from self-doubt
and at one with God and his will for me. My
perfect day is to walk with God, without fear, my true father and the source
of all life, and at this time selfishly have God’s ear to me and me alone. I
don’t question him about the suffering I brought upon myself. I do not blame
him for the hardships I’ve endured. I have this amazing peace about me and
the Lord’s spirit engulfs me with joy and gratitude. I ask the Lord what
special plan he had for me, because I’m confident that he has a very
particular mission from me and all that has happened in my life so far was
necessary for me to endure in order to bring hope and Faith to the multitudes.
I don’t ask God what took him so long; instead it is he who asks me “My
son, what took you so long”? “So many times you called on me. You prayed
for second chances. You promised to turn your will over to me, yet so many
times you took it back. Your sacrifices were of your own doing, yet it is your
suffering which makes you a powerful tool to help those who are able to relate
to you. Sinners need to hear from sinners, for the voice of a saint will fall
on death ears, yet a sinner who has given his life to the Lord carries a
powerful influence to those who still wander this earth lost, searching for
hope and it is your tales of faith that shall pierce their hearts and fill
their souls with my spirit and they too shall find the peace I have lovingly
given to you. Give of your self freely, for your reward is larger than your
earthly mind could ever understand” We
walk along an empty beach yet I don’t feel my feet touching the sand. I
realize that he is showing me a glimpse of heaven, for my heart is overwhelmed
with Joy and my mind is at peace as I realize that the external concerns that
absorb us as humans in this world are the farthest thing away from the life
that my God desires for me. I
begin to ask him questions that remain mysteries to us as humans. “Is there
a heaven?” “Will I see my departed love ones when I leave this realm and
move on to the afterlife?” God laid his hand on my shoulder. I felt a
powerful Love that brought tears to my eyes. So overwhelming, indescribable in
any manner or words known to man. It feels as if I’m floating in God’s
arms and I feel safe and secure for the first time in my life. When
I turn to look at him I am somewhat blinded by this amazing light. A light
different then any light I have seen on this earth. Suddenly all my wonders
become so clear to me, so simple that I never saw them, all the while they
were with me, right in front of me. No, not in front of me, or beside me, but
within me. I had lived in the material world for so long that I had truly lost
site of who I was and why I was here. At last my purpose was clear to me and I
could hear the angels singing from the gates of heaven. My heart rejoiced and
I can not describe the freedom I was basking in or the pleasure I was feeling
knowing that God loved me so much. It became so clear to me how tiny my
earthly concerns had been. My life would no longer be lived in the earthly
plain where guilt and envy dwelled. I would never again worry about anything,
including money, food, health, or employment. These were all things that will
be left behind when my journey here was over and I went to dwell in the house
of the Lord. I knew that I would be provided for and I could now set my
intentions on God’s will for me. I
walk this earth to give hope to those in despair, to give faith to those who
see no future, and love to all of God’s children unconditionally. Through my
trials and tribulations came a powerful message from God through me. I will
lead by example with a loving soul and a forgiving heart. I will not indulge
prejudice but treat all my brothers and sisters as equals, because we are all
one and the same in the eyes of our Lord. As
God wishes I will breach the boundaries of this worlds many religions, for
there is one God and he chooses no favorites, with the exception of those who
do his work and follow his word. To those they shall have favor from our Lord
and from all men. They are not above any other man; only in their testimonies
do they separate them selves as disciples of the lord, messengers and leaders
by example. Before
the lord left me he comforted me. He promised me that His spirit will guide me
and be with me for eternity. “You will walk this earth with angels at your
side. All who see you will know that you have the hand of God upon you”.
“Do not fear, for you as a believer have opened the gates of heaven to all
whom you love, those with you now and those that now reside in peace in the
house of your Lord”. I was so rejoiced and began to walk on air. “I love
you so much God, Thank you!” And once again God laid his hands on me and his
voice spoke through my ears to the depths of my soul. “I love you my son and
I am very proud of you”. My body was filled with this beautiful spirit that
consumed my every being. The spirit was loving and nurturing and the purest of
pure. I was as a newborn coming into this world cleansed and without sin. I
felt compassion, every breath of air I took was full of direction and purpose. The
Lord left my side yet I could still feel him resting inside of me. What an
honor to serve such a loving Father. It was time to spread God’s love and
compassion with those who were suffering spiritually. What a wonderful journey
lies ahead. What a wonderful friend to travel with. Yes, I am truly blessed!
Now there's work to be done and love to be spread. God Bless You! If
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Bartels is the author of many human interest stories. Jay's own story of hope
and inspiration can be found on his highly resourcefull family sites. Jay is a
single father raising two young girls and shares his experiences in several
journals that can be found on his web sites. If you would like to contact Jay,
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